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Kai sauntered into my life in February 2000. He was big; he was tough; he could handle anything
life threw at him. He pictured himself a fighter, with tiny boxing gloves on his paws.
Yet he was also gentle, lovable, cuddly, and oh so protective of little sister, Kira.
Kai and Kira officially adopted me in March 2001. And a short 16 months later Kai fought his last fight
and crossed the bridge on June 17, 2002. Kai developed numerous health problems in those 16 months.
He bravely faced his bi-weekly blood draws, his daily doses of medicine, and all the poking, prodding
and testing done in an effort to help him. Never a fight or a whimper. He was strong and proud to
the final minute.
With the assistance of an amazing woman who communicates with animals, I was able to talk with Kai
several times. He showed himself on TV, posing on the screen (his interpretation of all the pictures
I took of him).
He talked of having wings in which he could fly free, and digging in the dirt outside. He liked the
sound of bells as they relaxed him to sleep. He told me he had a tumor in his stomach and he had good
days and bad. On his good days he did his little ferret jitterbug. But on the bad days he thought
about leaving this life, and if I chose surgery for him, going to sleep and leaving during the operation,
in his words, "doesn't sound too bad".
Towards the end of June, Kai paid me a visit from across the Rainbow Bridge. His words to me were:
"…it was a long breath that last one. It was hard to keep my lungs filled with air. As hard as I tried
it just seems as if I couldn't, and I was so tired from the trying. I was still there and felt your
hands pick me up. You cried but more inside than outside. It was strange for me too to feel my body
empty. You thought of me young and I left then. It is just as I remember it here but I had forgotten.
I don't need to but I am in a good body and I am with friends here too. I have my old buddy back. Star
Bright Star Light, First Star I See Tonight........remember me, the Kai that I was, the best part of me,
2 years in my short life. My paws can take me anywhere. Have you not felt a small weight on your right
shoulder? I sit there and am
not afraid to fall. Thank you for letting me go. I still do not like
needles and cold smelly hands reaching for me. Thank you for wrapping me and caring for my body. Each
one more special than the last. You smell for me. Share my things with others and don't look for me
in their eyes. You are visited by many and I have been one." Kai then shows himself in body putting
his arm (paws) around my neck and giving me a big hug. "Ha...Ha.....I can reach now and get you back
for all those hugs and kisses. I am most glad that you picked me to care for." He then runs off holding
on to what looks like a kite over his head and as he starts to fly he turns and says "what did you expect,
wings on a ferret?"
There is an emptiness in my heart which I fear will not go away until I meet up with Kai again across
the Rainbow Bridge.
We love you and miss you so much, Kai-bo.
Mom, Dad and Kira
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